Happy 3 year anniversary to me!
Losing my breasts was a traumatic experience, but nothing could prepare me for what life would be like after the double mastectomy surgery. I was left feeling mutilated, less attractive, and anger and depression consumed me for a long time. What an ugly scar I have to look at every single day, a painful reminder that I am indeed a warrior.
It took me a while to really accept that this is what my breasts were going to look like and that there was always a chance the cancer could come back. With the support of friends and online support groups I re-gained my confidence, however my anxiety still remains and the thought of the cancer coming back overwhelms me.
Self esteem and mental health go hand in hand. Re-building my self esteem was definitely a challenge and a slow process but I am happy with the results. I’m focusing on my fitness: hiking, snowboarding and going to the gym. But I can’t say the same for food. I’m eating whatever I want and still drinking my wine everyday. What can I say? Living in Barcelona you can’t say no to wine!
None of my old bras really fit me anymore. I wear them sometimes but the wire makes it so uncomfortable. Till this day I barely have any feeling in my breasts, but I’ve learned to accept that.
Annually I get my blood tests done and this year I will get a scan (super anxious about this)
Just wanted to keep this short and sweet! If you have any questions feel free to contact me.
Special thanks to Rey Trajano and Julian Morales for making me look beautiful for my photoshoot.
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